If my world isnt with you then I will find you my Soo
I was left emotionally devastated after watching Scarlet Heart Ryeo, a Korean Drama.
At first I was thinking how wonderful it would be to travel to the past. Then it dawned on me it wouldnt be wonderful at all. Falling in love having a wonderful man, a wonderful marriage, a wonderful family. This life in the past would be wonderful then suddenly something happens, perhaps I would die and then I would be back in the present.
As if nothing had changed. I would have no memory of my life with the man I loved, no memory of my children, no memory of their laughter their faces. No memory of my husband saying “I love you”
Perhaps bit by bit memories would come back to me in a dream.
That would be the cruelest part. Remembering all of it. Knowing that my children and my husband were in the past, I wasnt there for them. I didnt get to see my husband grow old, and I never saw my children marry and I never saw my grandchildren.
Here I was in the present, I was alone.
I cried. My heart couldnt take it.