Such a beautiful day. Took a break from editing my blog and Went for a nice half hour walk. There is something peaceful about watching the clouds drift across the sky, feeling the slight breeze across my skin.
I was reflecting how much the direction of my blog has changed. I did not like the selfish toxic younger me and began to delete the toxic posts. (Yikes it will take a long time)
I also Reflected how much my change of thought as well as my body have changed. The thoughts over the years, my body since treatment but all aligned for a better healthier me.
My thoughts are no longer negative toxic obsessive. Sexuality- though sometimes filled with passion they are no longer consumed with the desire to please. Instead With the desire to please me.
Purposely- my thoughts when I was younger were always selfish now I yearn to be selfless and to be happy and bring happiness to others.
I never liked my body. I was a mess!Now since treatment it’s like my body re-entered puberty! I love it!
My hair is growing in nicer than before. Body hair included! Eyebrows are on fleek! I rarely have to pluck them or define them! The leg hair I have to shave now is below the knee! Because above knee is non-existent. If only that was true for the lady garden! My skin is clearer. I look younger. (I have always been complimented on that before my illness) I will still be proud of being a potato but now I’m an unicorn potato!
While I am joyful of the wonderful outcome of my treatment the only sadness I have is not many people are so lucky as me. I pray for their wellbeing every day. So they can be stronger and happier as well!