IF ONLY


I want you to kiss me nice and slow.

to have you tease me but you whisper “lets take it slow tonight”

 

CHOCOLATE FRIES?


Chocolate fries? That’s all kinds of wrong!

just like the Maple bacon poutine! I couldn’t brush my teeth enough to get rid of the taste!

 

DONT BLAME ME FOR YOUR MISERY


“Becky isn’t here today? Let’s have a good day”

“Becky don’t make me grumpy today”

“No don’t YOU make me grumpy”

it’s annoying when people blame me when they are having a bad day. I am always trying my best to be a positive person.

 people who are miserable and bitchy at me expect me to be as miserable as them or get irritated when I’m still in a good mood but I’m enjoying their misery.

I stayed home from work today because I had been sick since yesterday. I slept all day.

And somehow I am the reason people are miserable.

Maybe it’s true I am the reason people are grumpy.

I will find out tomorrow 

 

 

SORRY BUT I DONT WANT TO BE INSTA-FAMOUS!


I had a little surprise this morning.

I woke up to find I had 11 new followers on Instagram.

I dont have Instagram.

Curious as to what happened, I logged in.

How did this happen you might ask?

My niece.

She wanted to be Insta-famous!

Grumble.

I logged in. Ugh! This was Instagram?

Boring!

what is so great about Instagram? Aside from watching the videos and other people’s pictures.

Insta-snoop!

MY LATEST OBSESSION


I have discovered the (horrors) wonders of online shopping.

I have rarely gone online to shop because I know once I do, I will be obsessed with buying all the stuff I cant find in the crappy stores here in town.

And because I hate credit cards. Dont use them. Dont want them. Dont want the pain of a dip in my credit rating!

Then there is the fact I will shop shop til I drop drop!

Which I was doing this morning.

Online. Looking for subscription boxes.

Subscription boxes.

Has my life come to this? Hoping to receive cute things in the mail?

Maybe I need a cat!

 

What I have been looking for

  • Beauty
  • crystals and mindfulness
  • anime
  • books

What I have subscribed so far

Ipsy

 

 

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE BETTER OFF ALONE


Whenever someone asks me if I am tired of being alone, or when will I get a boyfriend I shrug it off.

A person should not be judged on if they are single or not. Why should I conform to society?

I don’t need a man to look after me. I have money. I have a home. However, if he wants to cook and clean that’s fine with me. we can have mind-blowing sex and playhouse. but I dont need a man to define who I am.

Why do women believe that?

However I was watching an interesting video

 

It wasn’t the “pretty” aspect of the video that had me thinking.

It was the “what would I bring to the relationship” aspect.

That hit me hard.

What would I bring?

Honestly? I couldn’t think of one thing that a man would appreciate.

Except maybe my humor, my willingness to always be there, love, and trust.

I was scraping the bottom of the barrel with those attributes!

I decided to take personality assessment test.

Answering the questions were hard.

The results made me scratch my head. That didn’t help at all!

Affection is really important to me. I had desired high involvement and low desired independence.

WTF! I am not high maintenance! I am not needy! Am I clingy? Hmm, I don’t know! But I am independent. I dont need anyone to tell me I am beautiful, lovely to validate myself. However, a simple a love you will do!

Compared to the Average Person:

  • You want to spend high amounts of time together in your close relationships.
  • You need high levels of communication in order to feel close to others.
  • You require low intimacy in your close relationships, which means that you want to share low amounts of personal information.
  • Your desire for people to be there to support you when you need them is low.
  • In order for you to feel close to others, you require low levels of emotional connection, which means it’s of low importance to you that other people like you, feel happy thinking about you, and miss you when you’re not around.
  • When trying to feel close to others, you need very high amounts of affection, which includes others finding ways to show you they love you.

 

I think maybe I am better off alone!

 

CAST ASIDE YOUR WORRIES


I was very grumpy today. When I was going to sit down and write about why I was grumpy I totally forgot how come!

I suppose that is why it is said “Take it to the Lord and leave it there”

or Let it go.

 

COMIC RELIEF


I was in another of my moments. Where I wasnt really paying attention, too busy to care and wishing I was in my bed buried in my blankets!

The sensor went off. I greeted the customer.

“Do you want me to speak slowly so you can understand what I am saying?”

My first reaction was who the hell did this fool think he was talking to?!

Then I realized it was Chad.

 

“Yes please” I replied, giggling. “I am having a rough morning.”

“Ok two large coffees” He spoke very slowly. “Double double. Do you want me to say that again?”

“No” I giggled. “Is that it?”

“Yes, you got it right!”

“Yeah me! Do I get a gold star!”

Chad snorted. “Ok sure, yeah”

I laughed.

Over lunch I switched to the second lane.

When the sensor goes off.

I greeted the customer.

“Oh god not you again!”

I burst out laughing. “Why?! What did I do to deserve this?” I moan.

Chad chuckles “Two large coffee.”

He waited for me to finish his sentence “double double”

I pause “are you having a plain hamburger?” I asked.

“No. Just coffee.” he replied.

ah a bit of comical relief from the craziness of the day!

you have a pretty voice


 

A male customer complimented me on my voice in drive thru.

i was so startled all I could reply was thank you.

Awkward.

 

ITS A BEAUTIFUL MORNING


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The side walks!

The walk to work was beautiful. +3C

on each side of the sidewalks were waist high of snow!