I was so bone tired after work yesterday I went to bed early.
I didn’t get any sleep because I was in pain. I hurt my toe. 🤦♀️😂
I finally get into a deep pain free sleep and Daisy had to wake me up.
I exploded. I was so tired and frustrated. I closed the door and went back to sleep.
I dreamt of my wedding.
It was a disaster!
M had the gall to be upset with me because I was moving on. That I was tired of being second in his life.
“You have the nerve!” I cried, “I was the one who never forgot about you, Who never stopped thinking about you. You forgot about me. You moved on. Married. Had children. Built a life without me! Now when I want to be happy you decide you want me. No! You don’t get me.”
“You don’t love him” M shouted.
“And maybe I didn’t love you.”
M recoiled as if I slapped him. “You don’t mean that” he whispered.
“You never loved me. You never did” I glared at him.
M reached for me. “I love you, I will always love you. If marrying this guy makes you happy I will do everything I can to make that happen.” He pressed a kiss against my forehead “I never want us to be apart”
“What?! What are you saying”
M smoothed my hair from my face, and gazed into my eyes “marry him. Do what needs to be done. But you’re mine. I love you. I want to grow old with you. Share your sunsets with you. Until that happens do what needs to be done to make you happy”
M insisted my wedding be on his ranch. He paid for everything. My friends were there. I don’t know why my Russian customers were there. There were cats roaming around-a prank by a cousin. My dress was missing. Sabotage by my disapproving parents.
I was panicking. Until a white limo pulled up and one of my friends climbed out with a celebrity make up artist and stylist.
My new wedding gown was indigo.
M walked me down the aisle to Martina mcBride’s “I have been blessed”
Then I woke up.