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so this video is a teaser of the new show on CW… VAMPIRE DIARIES. I loved the books when i was in high school guess when that was. 15 years ago. i guess no it was in ’95. so 14. i was close. anyway Ian Somerhalder or whatever his name is playing Damien. Cool he is playing the bad brother. sigh. and i cant believe they have that punk paul wesley playing Stefan. ew. why? the girl playing Elena is Nina from Degrassi Next Gen. good choice.I think it is funny with the fascination with Twilight that they are putting out this show now instead of 14 years ago when the book came out. they could have made a movie. but it is ok.With the CW tho they ok shows, they took off Girlfriends grrarggh, and what is up with easy money priviledged..(ew ew ew) and Valentine (sigh) CW should air USA network shows…or something.they should make Charmed spin off with Wyatt and Chris and Phoebe’s daughter…but what do i know i just rambleNo comments on THE VAMPIRE DIARIES HMM COULD BE GOOD
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i am so tired…i didnt get to bed til late last night because i was watching Power Ranger Dino Thunder….yep that is so sad. it really is the ONLY best season of power ranger ever!!!! but the funny thing is i was reading on wiki that John Tui – cruger (S.P.D) and Daggeron (mystic force); was the only person in MMPR history to play two different characters. on two separate mmpr series maybe the first. not the only.Dwayne Cameron made his first appearance on dino thunder as a bully. then he was a ranger on Operation Overdrive.There was Holly Shananan- she was on mystic force playing the evil daughter and camile on Jungle fury.Katrina devine was on Ninja storm and she was Cassidy Cornell on Dino thunder. so wait Katrina would be the first. lol.So lately i have been watching Diagnosis Murder. I will say this Barry Van Dyke is hot. He plays Lt. Steve Sloan. he is hot for an older man. i am done with watching 2+3 seasons. i just have to get the rest of the them.I read Jayne Anne Krentz’s Running Hot. I really hate series. I love jayne. but this time she has gone too far! she linked one series which i hated (eclispe trilogy) to the Arcane society! omg!!!! you cant do that! she is destroying every book she writes. the last one i read, was part of her DarkLight series. she managed to link that to her Arcane society. how the samhell can you link one book that is about parasuspense in the distant future to a book in the present then another that is about historical pararomance in the 1800’s. it doesnt make sense. the Arcane society is one series! One series!!!!! omg!!!!!
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One day at a time. One step at a moment. little things passes us by. we close our eyes to what we have becomewe fear what we dont know, we ignore what we hate we will become what we createwe fight for our peace and war for our gods there is little in between, its all for gain and yet its all for nothingwe will be left with dust and ash, blood will be on our hands and this place we call home will falland we will be responsible.
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i wanted to taste you to make you crawl out of your skin and die a little death. I wanted to take you to heaven dream a little dream of me then send you to hell in a lovers box. Lay you down til all of you was inside me and everything spent. Just to die a little death
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io9 – No Means No, Except In The Dollhouse – Dollhouse
I love dollhouse. It is ten times better than Angel ever was. Discovering that the Dolls names are actually army code names for the alphabet is kind of creepy. The fact Sierra was ever introduced at all is kind of mind numbing. I really dont like sierra. She is like a baby that constantly needs to be coddled. But that sierra was raped is kind of outrageous in itself. sad because her mind state was like a child. she could not defend herself, and she trusted her handler without question. it was morbid and gross. I was really hoping she had escaped for good. Yea no more sierra. Right no such luck it was an engagement. oh the humanity!!!
I however was cheering on mellie when she kicked sierra’s handler’s ass. Mellie is so awesome, she is so beautiful, and i was hoping she and ballard would stay together. hello chemistry much. okay echo and ballard have chemistry too. ooh threesome. lol
No sierra really doesnt do anything on Dollhouse except amp up the ew factor.
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17 Again, Synopsis, Review, Stills, Trailers – Sympatico/MSN Movies
There are somethings in this world that should never ever be allowed in public and this one of them.
OMG! you know hollywood hit all time low when matthew perry and zac efron are starring in the same movie together!!! you know why that is? Matthew Perry was only one willing to touch the script and star with zac. No one wanted to touch that with ten foot pole!!!
Matthew probably thought zac was a girl said hey sure why not. she is hellacute. but then when the director said no zac’s a man, matthew was like aw hell no. but because matthew hasnt made a decent movie in never he has no choice.
hollywood has not put one good movie in a year. this movie is one of many that just suck. It is so bad that the trailers are better than the movie itself. however i can honestly say this movie and this trailer will probably both suck big balls of epic fail.
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– Bad Movie Premises Gallery Sympatico MSN / Movies
Give me a break here ppl. out of the movies you could have picked. you picked candy man as the worst? no way. Candy Man was awesome. I loved that movie. Tony Todd was so freakish with the Bees omg. my favorite was the one with kelly rowan.
I do agree tho the movie The Haunting had to be lamest movie ever. I bet owen wilson; catherine zeta- jones and Liam Neeson wish they could have shot themselves in the foot with that one. The only scary thing about it was the doors to the library??? all those children carved into the door. Creepy.
I dont know why they didnt include Unborn, the friday the 13th series or how about Halloween? How many times does it take to kill a guy? Jason in space now that was someone’s idea of taking crap and putting it on paper.
I think someone writes a crappy screenplay waits till a producer or whoever is loaded on crack and then says "hey doosh bag want to make this awesome movie" the guy is loaded on crack he will say yes to anything.
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Whispers of you violate my waking dreams i am hungry but its not food i crave. Would i carve myself out of my skin, this husk so i may taste you. Whispers of you bind me chains winding tight. Together bound soul heart will we ever wake from this dream?
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how did u get to b so sweet… How did u get to b so sweet…i am about to fall asleep. I am so tired. Yet i am afraid to. I had a lucid dream again. An evil presence in my dream. I am beginning to think i am being haunted or something is trying to tell me something. I had to hurt myself to get myself out of dream state. I was in such a relaxed state not in any crisis not in any pain. I have been in such a great mood lately whatever this presence is i am not impressed!!! But i am h.a.p.p.y !
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Wednesday, March 04, 2009
i just woke up from the wierdest hot dream. ok not hot. but it felt nice. so i am at diane’s i guess for mchappy dinner. and the house is in the country. horses everywhere. i went to put jeremy’s books away in the living room. sheri is still sick so she hasnt eaten and i walk by her. and she makes wise crack about my loverboy being there. i walk in and out of the corner of my eye i see Derek. He is sitting on the couch, eatting dinner. he is all scruffy looking lol longer hair and he is wearing a cap. i almost dropped all the books. i put them away trying to be all non-chalent about it. right. damn it he looked soooo fine. there was no way i was going to sit on the couch next to him i was being such a shy coward, i sit on the floor by the couch in a corner. unfortunately lisa fergsuson is there too she comes and sit beside me. uh what are you doing? get away from me i dont want to talk to u! but she tells me karol-lyn and wease is there. oh shit. hide. i curl up. Derek peers over the couch and ask what i am doing. I turn so red. ‘I am hiding from ex roommate ok” i murmured. Diane comes into the room and hands out potatoes chips and dessert. hot and spicy potato chips. so while i am talking to trina i feel a hand on my back. i try to ignore it, i glance up its derek. he is watching me. okay. “Is that Lisa?” trina exclaims. i look out the window and here is lisa t on a horse coming into the yard. where did she get a horse. Derek’s hand had slid down lower and now is in pants touching my ass. wow.
I try not to make a sound, but i think my face is so red now and derek is smirking. cheeky bastard. lisa t came in and a colt escaped into the house and followed the smell of food into the living room. the colt is on me. aw he is so cute. i am petting it. a little freaked out because this little horse is in my face but it is so cute. then derek starts to pet it too. he got all goo goo over it. i started to giggle because now the colt is trying to climb over me to lick the salt from derek’s face. derek had to remove his hand from my pants to hold back the horse but then derek was cuddling the horse. he looked at me for a moment and he rolled off the couch and dragged the horse with him and he was on top of me. “Derek!” i gasped. he smirked. ‘Didnt you want to see the horse too” so he is laying ontop of me, his back on my front and petted the horse.
“Derek if you wanted to cuddle you could have just said so.” i said. he laughed. “No you would have got freaked out.”
Sunday, March 08, 2009
I hate sundays. But this week has been a really great one. I have been very happy. i havent been depressed or angry or sad. the last three weeks i have been so depressed. so depressed. maybe since chad left i have never felt so depressed. that year. but now i am feeling great. I dont know why.
I think the hardest thing for me is not being able to talk to ppl how i feel. i have no one to talk to anymore. not since chad. i know handle things so badly, and i am happy for lyndsay and chad. but he was the one i talked to. and omg if i only know then what i know now i would have thrown out my cellphone!!!! cell phones were my obsession. how many did i have…oh i dont know four back then. sweet mercy they all broke down. i cant think of chad without thinking what the eff was i thinking?!!! if i was bugging him as much as joel bugs me…well only when chad quit… i was a maniac!!!
any way i have no one to talk to now. i really dont talk to anyone. when i got scared i used to msg chad all the time…cant do that we dont talk anymore…and now that the lucid dreams are coming at a more substantal rate well i am screwed. i have been lucky this week i have had none. keep my fingers crossed.
so i dont talk to my parents because they are like walls nothing penetrates and they are so set in their ways. i was discussing something and it was really important to me because sometimes its how i feel. but i wont dont do it because suicide is a sin, even tho i had thought about it and was close to doing it once i was not going to give in because i was not going to be weak. i felt so bad about it, because my friends son is going through such a rough time and i was trying to get some advice about it. to help her deal with it. and my mom said why doesnt he kill himself then. I was so stunned first of all. Then i was angry. Angry was an understatement. how can a mother even think of that? but then again we are talking about my mother. i stared at her and i said “suicide is a sin.” my mother is mega religious. what was she doing saying these things to me. but then again she encouraged me to commit suicide. at the lowest point in a person’s life a mother should never encourage her child to take her own life. but that was what my mother did. and i didnt. damned if i was going to give her the satisfaction. i was so mad that my mother said something so disgusting to me. that was my friends son. he needed help and thats what she said. then she said there is only so much my friend can do to help her son if he wanted to commit suicide she should let him. i wanted to slap her. what did my mom know. i had to go.
i get my strength every day from the goddess. i pray every day. i pray that i never give into my weakness, that sadness never overcome me so much that i take my own life. i complain every day about my medication but i am grateful that i take it. my medication is a godsend. compare to the valporic acid i took for half my life. my mom wanted to take to a pyschiatrist because i was so depressed all the time. i was crying 3 days out of the week. i was angry not to mention hypergraphia… writing all the time, all the time.. mostly sexual fantasies, my obsessiveness was out of control. but when i had my grand mal seizure at work. thats when medication change. it was like veil was lifted. i saw the world for the first time. ppl for the first time. i was happy, i wasnt crying all the time. i was angry but i would tell you damn right instead of acting out in temper tantrum. i wasnt so obsessive. i lost my graphia. my senses were dull but now were sharp. too bad about the mental capabilities lol.
i am grateful everyday that i dont have that darkness anymore, sometimes it sneaks on me. but when i feel it i just pray.
having no one to talk to no one to trust is draining me, i really fucked up. but at least he is happy. i like knowing lyndsay and chad are happy, that they are making a life together.
i think i am happy alone. i cause nothing but trouble. i am content with i got. i just need a nicer suite with no neighbors!!!!!!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
yesterday was an ok day. i must admit that i was in a great mood. connor came in and i almost didnt recognise him!!! he had trimmed his beard! no more grizzly adams jokes i guess. he greeted me first again before i could even get my mouth open. he never used to, shy i guess or freaked out. lol. but he has been throwing himself out there. i told him he looked great. gee the words were out before i could stop. oh well and dan was bugging me afterwards about flirting with a customer. what? its connor.
today i wasnt feeling that great. man i was having a great sleep. then i had to wake up. damn it. i figure why cant i have another set of eyes or something so it looks like i am awake and functioning when really i am sleeping. i got to work and i almost had a shit and half. doesnt make sense i know. but joel was working again. why? at least he didnt talk to much to me. i feel so guilty. but i get so annoyed when he does. he has this downcast look all the time and i feel like such a bitch but i dont know why i feel so irritated when he talks to me. it is like something in me is physically telling me to not encourage anything from him. and he is so nice. he is like a teddy bear. but i get so arrgh. i am such a bitch!!! ahhhhh!!! i am so frustrated with myself because i am trying to be nice to him but at the same time i cant because he rubs me the wrong way.
treesa asked me how chad was doing, and i couldnt remember why we were talking about him. probably about how i got kicked off someone’s facebook because i disagreed with somebody’s opinon about a power ranger. lol. and then she asked how chad was doing. i shrugged. i dont know how he is doing. we dont talk anymore.
then talk about freaky. i am running for drive thru and chad drives up to the window. it was like a half hour or so later. I damn near had a stroke! that is so freaky!!!! i say hi. he turns and he waves. then he saw ned and starts to speak to ned. huh absolute wierdness.
today i was bugging brandon. i was epic awesome and he was epic fail. neil nailed brandon with a wet bartowel, and i thought he got nailed in the balls so i was lmao and brandon is like “NO! neil got me in the belly”. fun times. i snapped on some gloves and i looked at brandon and he was hiding his ass from me. “Ahhh” he gave me the wierd look. bend over brandon. so much fun.
i was reading in the newspaper that the police didnt try to stop the guy that was killing tim mcclean.the guy killed on the greyhound bus. lee was eating tim and the police was just standing there watching. wtf!!!! they have no problem tasering the polish guy but they dick around watching some lunatic eat this poor guy. wtf. shoot the guy already!!! i was so mad and sickened at the same time. and then he gets off because he is insane. fuck that put him in jail, and let the inmates take care of him. you know what i am surprised that scott petersen is still alive. damn it!!! what the hell i thought those guys had some sort of code.
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oH MY GOD! Yes the the humanity! Where is my barf bag! I was searching for the new season of POWER RANGERS! ahhh i am going to have nightmares!!! FOREVER!!! why?!!!!So the new power ranger is called the POWER RANGERS RPM. ok the title isnt so bad. but what have they done to the ZORDS!!! its like they Chibi chibisized them or i should say SD them! SD ZORD! you cant super deform the ZORDS! they are ugly! the theme song is horrible! RPM is like a cross between TURBO and SPD!!!To make matters worse they are having shark, wolf and bear zords. WTF??? BEAR??? havent you learnt your lesson from WILDFORCE? BEAR?!!!and they might have a black red ranger. A third one ever. big deal. But they went back to green ranger. They should have just stuck with blue red pink yellow. black. Hello black ranger! and the white ranger. GREEN??? no one wants the green ranger back!!! Lightspeed rescue ruined it for me.I know why not go back to some originals rangers like bring back Nick from Mystic Rangers, or conner or ethan from Dino thunfer, carlos or TJ from Turbo. Andros and Ashley from In SPACE. just some familar faces. and why not more girls???oh man why???
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MY MAD RANTING ABOUT THE CASEY ANTHONY CASE YET AGAIN!!!!
you know what pisses me off. that george anthony was a former sheriff. he had been around theives and murderers etc, yet he couldnt tell that his own daughter has been lying from the beginning.
first of all he should have had been having warning signs about his daughter when his grand daughter suddenly disappeared and she kept making excuses about why no one has been seeing her. her babysitter story full of crap.
reasonable explanation? i dont think so. you dont see your grand daughter for 4 weeks and its reasonable.
everytime she told the police something about caylee it was a different story.
and who was this babysitter? if you were living with your daughter and your granddaughter you would know who was babysitting your granddaughter!
George should have realised at once that this was a bogus story. there was no zanny and no babysitter taking her baby, what else should have blipped on his sheriff radar was the fact she was no where to be found during the four weeks that caylee was missing. Casey stole a checkbook from her bff and spent more than a thousand dollars. she also blogged on myspace. got tattoos, total wrong behavior of a woman who is looking for her daughter.
she isnt even crying on the camera. for her daughter. she only cries when her mother is mad at her.
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Monday, December-22-08
I woke up this morning and checked my facebook. Derek got to sleep in and get paid for it. I changed my status to comment on that. I miss Derek. He was so fun to work wit
Damn weather. I damn near froze my ovaries off in drive thru. Zack walks in and I am not really paying attention to him, I am freezing, and the stupid customers are ordering coffee. Grrrgrrr grrr. But MBP seems to think that is cool, cuz now that zack and I are not touching each other or hitting on each other, and he is talking to her. She is all that. So she calls him Zackary Binks. Holy shit had I not looked up and saw for myself the look he gave her…wow i would missed the look of the century!!!!!! I damn near pissed myself!!!! No one calls him that except me. Wow it was so priceless. What the hell kind of look was that?!!! And what the fuck are you doing calling Zack “Binks”?
Zack and MBP was talking about Christmas shopping he didnt know what to get Alyssa. MBP says “Why dont you ask Rebecca what to get Alyssa?” I am in la la land. DAMN COFFEE and TEA!!!! Arrgh!!! So all i heard was my name. I am like what?
Then MBP explains, i am like why the hell would you drag me into the conversation? I dont need to be in a conversation. She always does that. Drag me into a conversation that i was no part of and then try to make me look either stupid, jealous, retarded or whateva.
Zack walks over and I suggest some gift ideas for Alyssa Darling but of course he shot them all down, he was right abrupt about it. Fine i wont talk to you about Alyssa. She loves Audrey Hepburn. I saw an awesome Audrey Hepburn book in Coles the other day, and he says she doesnt read. Oh Zack.
He helps me in second booth, i dont care that tea is an excellent import, it fucking pisses me off! I wish ppl realise that the reason they are waiting so long is because I have to wait for the hotwater to pour. ARRGH!!! Damn Tea!!!!
I get to go on my break, and Derek replied to my status on Facebook, aw poor pookie. He has to work outside in the cold weather. But he didnt today cuz it was too cold. Thank goodness. He is such a baller. Lol.
I come back, and into the drive thru again, what the hell. NO!!!!!
This time i didnt really care if i was making the customer wait or not. I have no heat you do so fuck off.
Scottie scared the shit out of me! OMG! I hugged him. I was so happy to see him. I havent seen him in forever.
Claire and I froze in First, didnt help that Zack kept coming in to see how we were doing. We werent icicles yet. Lol
Neil and I were comparing customers which girls were hot and which werent. Lol aw man did i ever get him good. He was so grossed out.
Zack totally grossed me out by saying that this older chick that came through was a milf. Say what?!!! No way!!! He laughed. That guy is so crazy.
I gave scottie another hug and zack was like huh, in a not so pleased way. Aw but i pay attention to you too. Before i left i gave neil a hug.
Dan so thinks i totally dig him. Oh well. He is such a sweetie.
I watched House Bunny. Fucking hilarious. If i was ever that stupid tho i would kill myself. I so want to watch CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC. Starring Isla Fisher. That is gonna be so funny.
I had a good laugh I was reading COSMOPOLITAN
· I dont see what the big deal is if a man burps everyonce in while. Or farts. Hell we do it. We dont like to talk about it. But we do it. I call mine SBDs. Cuz i could probably kill a person. But if i am with someone or ppl i dont know i will not owe up it. There is such thing as Excuse Me. So yeah no big deal.
· Widows peak. So what? I have a huge forehead. Tyra banks has nothing on me. I would kill for a widows peak and you want to cover it. Bitch please.
· PDA he’ll actually be into- damn i must be doing so something wrong. Play with his hair. Cant do that. I work in the food industry. Damn. Touch the small of his back. I do that and more. Kiss his cheek. Hmmkay. Let me see…nope i guess i am doing the right stuff cuz they keep coming back. Or something.
· Women if you want to cuckold your partner, remember if you have blue eyes, and your partner has blue eyes…make damn sure your fucking someone that has blue eyes. That way if you get pregnant there is no way your partner cant tell that baby isnt his. 2 Blue eyes parents can only have a blue eyed baby. I love biology.
· This is my fave. Day 14-17 of the women menstruation cycle, their testosterone peaks and emit pheromones and men extra attention. However day 23-28 fewer pheromones are sent out and male attraction dips. Son of a bitch!!!
· Then there was the Revenge of the Sluts. Wow i am glad i never had that problem. The popular girls were afraid of me, the nerds were too nerdy and since i was in the middle wow…i am just glad no one tried to mess with me.maybe i had a rep for being a bit freaky.
There was that one girl…lol she ended up in the pysch ward. Dont mess with me. mad mojo. Actually she was already freaky. I just happened to believe bad things happened to ppl who mess with me. And thats what happened. Lol or something like that.
WHAT GUYS REALLY NOTICE ABOUT YOUR LOOKS
1. HE WONT NOTICE IF YOUR HAIR STYLE IS A LITTLE MESSY. Umm sure right. If your living in fantasy land and you are bambi. Chad actually asked if i brushed my hair. I did!!!!
2. HE WILL NOTICE YOUR HAIR CONDITION ISNT GREAT… yes he will notice that.
3. HE WONT NOTICE SKIN THATS SHINY…right he notices if your skin is dry and flaky. He notices!!!!
4. HE WILL NOTICE SKIN THATS INFLAMED…yep he notices everything. You have to be perfect…oh the humanity.
5. HE WONT NOTICE MINOR ROOTS. Nope he wont.
6. HE WILL NOTICE A MAJOR HAIRCUT. Oh yeah. Especially if it is totally short.
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I am so happy it is friday.It is the end of the week and I have no stress anymore. Mark, my cousin added me to facebook. Yea I havent seen him in 14 years. wow he looks really hot.I got a new laptop. I can finally work on my stories now. Yea!Jamie txt most of last nite. Maybe he was bored from doing his english essay but he was txting me til nine. Like I am so exciting. I was going to bug Derek about his comment on facebook, I was going to burn him bad but I ended up putting some lame ass remark instead. gee thats surprising. Look at me I am a smart ass.I msged Dan. I think he thinks I have a thing for him. The other day he remarks about how many times I tagged him on facebook. Right in front of Zack. Smooth move Dan. Wow Zack gave me the look. The look are you for real? It did look a little odd how many pictures of Zack and Dan I took. Mwah. Anyway I was like Dan aw what? You like that didnt you?Dan was disgusting lol he was talking about blood or something and I said that sort of reminded me of how jenna jameson’s ex girlfriend liked to go down on her while she was on her period. Oh man Dan was like aw why did you tell me that? Our conversation went down hill from there. I think Dan and Zack like the fact I can be so disgusting and can chek out girls as well.Lol today Dan gave me the strange look again, I wonder if I am so flirtious. or something. Anyway I gave him a hug b4 i left today. Yea me.I was having a bad hair day the other day I am by the sink and Zack came in on his day off to see steve and he sees me. Oh wow like he never seen me. Was so happy to see me . lol well he just had to touch me again. lolman so much fun
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Casey anthony is such a liar. I am watchin court trials and her jailhouse conversations. She says she loved Caylee. the whole month she was missin she expressed no emotion didnt let anyone kno she was missin. She is diabolical. She was partyin three days after caylee was missing in july. She lied numerous times. Now she wants a plea bargain. For what. She killed her baby and now she is blamin it on an imaginary nanny. She deserves nothing. -
I cried when Caylee Anthony’s body was found. I find it so hard to see a child hurt or crying. But when a child is dead i cant help but cry. How can any parent be so heartless. I love my neice with my heart i see her smile and everything inside me is joyful. To hear her talk or play is so precious to have that be taken away i would die inside. I cant understand why anyone would kill their child. Their child is a gift. I am glad caylee was found im just so sad she went thru that. Now mayb she will b @ peace
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Premiere week this week. YEAH!!!I have been waiting for CSI: Miami for awhile. It was a little disappointing to say the least.First of all if Horatio was going underground, Ryan should have changed his number so the number on the punks cell couldnt be traced back to him. For a smart man Horatio was sure smart enuf not to leave it in Delko’s hands. Delko is too emotional.I couldnt watch all of Heroes. Sigh so I recorded it.Today is NCIS. I really didnt like Holly Lauren on that show so I am glad she is off, but they are splitting upt the team. WTF?!!!!Man i am such a tv freak. Lol I need a life or something.I missed the season finale of CI last saturday and Bleach. Well I had a stroke. The cable had been fritzing on and off all day. Bleach was about to start. I was finally going to see who orchstrated the whole mess with the soul society. If Gin was alive . when the cable shut off. AWWW fuck no!!!I phoned shaw. What the fuck rite? They told me the only my area was down. WHAT?!!!!NOOOO I am going to miss Bleach and Law and ORDER?!!!! grrr.I better not miss my power rangers tomorrow morning.Nope.Oh man i was like aw they are introducing the new ranger gross. Till I saw him. Then I was like oh hello.His outfit and power is way cooler than the rest of the rangers. LOL figures all white rangers are like that.anyway dont have much to say yep other than I need a life I guess…not i have one. its just i like my shows.
